Sorry about your fish, I hope you find it in yourself to stay in the hobby. I've lost a tank or two over the years and the only thing that stopped me from returning to it right away was money. I found the passion never really leaves you...sometimes even despite your best efforts to do so. 
 
Good luck either way. 
		
	
		
		
		
		
		
	
		
		
	
	
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